The weight of love
I don’t get how people can go around loving all their friends as if it’s the easiest, most natural human penchant. I also don’t understand people who go searching for the love of their lives as if it’s the most exciting and fulfilling thing to do. Quite honestly, I think the excitement is short-lived and the fulfillment is, well, unfulfilling. Look at the depravity of the world and the brokenness of everyone in it. Love is heavy and in short supply. Whether it’s giving or receiving love, it weighs heavily on the heart. I usually want to keep it all to myself because things get complicated when love involves people, especially other people. It’s a good thing love is a decision and not a feeling. It seems ironic, but that fact gives me a lot of peace and hope.

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are you talking more about the weight of love in the bgr sense or otherwise? or is there even that big of a difference? is bgr love different than friendship love because of the intensity and intimacy, or is it completely different to begin with?
is love always a decision and not a feeling? does one consciously decide to love one's friends or can it just "happen"?
maybe love seems complicated when it involves other people because of the irrational and mysterious "x factor" of it. it can't be controlled (no matter how hard one tries) and it's almost never predictable. or maybe it's complicated because it exposes one's vulnerability and without fail, causes pain.
hmmmm.
good thoughts. I think the feelings helps in daily deciding.