The more I look at and learn about myself,

the more I don't recognize what I see. I'm not sure what has changed, or if anything aside from perception has changed at all. I've found indiosyncracies, proclivities, likes, and dislikes that I hadn't taken notice of before. It isn't as scary as it is surprising but it shakes things up a bit. It shakes things up to realize you don't know everything about something you thought you knew something about.

Regardless of those things I see and don't recognize, I'm still that girl who has a sweet tooth, a softspot for Haribo gummies, likes Chinese poetry, kungfu dramas, and office supplies, enjoys making things and chatting online, and can make biting remarks but can't hold an argument.

I'm still that girl who has a lot to learn, that girl whose future holds many shakings. Somehow, that's comforting. Glimpses of God's grace.